Better in Time Pt. II

"The unexamined life is not worth living."
-Socrates c. 400 BC

As I was cleaning my room, I came across my old history work and found an assignment example on the analysis of Socrates' quote. The following is from my hero, Ellen Bergan, once again.

"For Socrates, to question means to use your ability to think rationally about a topic and arrive at thoughtful conclusion. According to Socrates, if you are NOT doing this thinking and questioning, your life has no value: you might as well be dead. For it is only through contemplation that we have a life that has purpose, that has meaning, and is worth living."

I'm glad to have found this, more so, glad to have kept it at all. Even prior to finding this, I was analyzing my experiences through this very journal. Whether the mood was bitter or sweet, I have been struck to learn that these analyses bring satisfaction and light in every situation.

In my argument class, Dr. Sako told us that the study of argument is not to learn to distinctly agree or disagree with claims, rather engage in it to find common ground. In other words, forcing opinions through one's tunnel vision or disagreeing about the slightest opposition implies of an outdated and weak argument. In contrast, a modern and strong argument is constituted by logic, integrity, and courage to change.

Leaving high school opened my eyes to a new concept: saying goodbye. It was only a short while ago when you thought everything you were a part of, including friendships, were as clear as glass. Whether it was externally that everyone knew your business or internally when you could place trust in the intentions of another, by the time it shattered, saying sorry would not bring those pieces back together. Instead the attempt to reconstruct the glass left cuts due to a shrouded understanding. In the end, your maturity delegated your interpretation of the situation's entire meaning or in another sense, whether the scars would heal.

It would be ironic, for both you and I, to be angry at this situation, since I have also agreed that anger is a letter short of danger and in simply a short step of the wrong direction, the rotations of the clock's hands would redeem itself meaningless. One mindset has convinced me that, despite my perceived maturity, I was not flawless. The outcome of the other holds that my naiveté, which I could not control, was to learn from those mistakes. I have come to question the whether my mistakes were the result of your insecurities, those of which I initially insisted on not violating. Of course, I had no rule in what made you insecure, but I have been wondering why you persisted in convincing me to do so.

To validate the theme of this entry, I am solely trying to point out the rather lukewarm waters I intend for both of us to reach. There's no room in my system for bitterness or pain or, as I have told you in the climax of my hardest situations, hate.

Thank you. Thank you nurturing my growth as an adult and opening the doors to an adventurous life that I have always overlooked. I am truly grateful for everything, honestly. Not for a second should you think your influence has been dismissed out of my life as I have learned so much in so little time. My intentions were always positive and my commitment well-paralleled that. There is a considerable amount of hope that whatever field we may be on now will be fruitful. And though it was unofficial, please understand the commitment I bore. I pray that you will be able to face the same cracks in the mirror you once held in front of me. Only then would I consider that we did not spoil the seeds of a lasting friendship. Until you are ready to confront this situation and present a different plate to the table, I will be doing my best to move on.


In My Sincerest Form,
Andrew Doolittle


I am sorry to have posted this here, but in consideration of the lack of communication, I figured a post here would not go unnoticed. If my point was not apparent or if I may have misunderstood you, I hope you will find a way to get the answer in the right path.

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